hello
I’m back from the behavioral health center at the hospital. IDK how much I’ll be online these days… I’m trying to cut back, in preparation for school. We’ll see how it goes. I missed you guys, tho.
I’m going to the hospital
I’m not feeling my best and I don’t want to get worse because I’m really close to just fucking myself over with all these feels. I may be able to update from my itouch. I might just update my main blog. It’s http://mrmundy.tumblr.com/ if you are all wanting to know that.
adios-toreadoki started following you
D—> Hello
==> What was this lowbl— trolls name again
D—> … Tavros
D—> Right
uHH, hEY, eQUIUS,
hOW ARE YOU,
D—> I’m e%quisite
D—> Thank you for asking
D—> How are you
uHH, i’M OKAY, i GUESS,
jUST A LITTLE LONELY,
D—> Ah
D—> I know how you feel then
D—> I have not had much contact with others for about a sweep now
yEAH, iT GETS HARD, wHEN EVERYONE IS BUSY,
aND THERE ISN’T, uHH, tIME LEFT FOR YOU,
bUT i THINK, iT’S NOT SO BAD„,
uHH, bECAUSE IT WILL MAKE WHAT TIME YOU DO HAVE WITH THEM, a LOT BETTER,
bECAUSE IT’S BEEN SO LONG SINCE YOU SAW THEM,
i GUESS„,
adios-toreadoki started following you
D—> Hello
==> What was this lowbl— trolls name again
D—> … Tavros
D—> Right
uHH, hEY, eQUIUS,
hOW ARE YOU,
D—> I’m e%quisite
D—> Thank you for asking
D—> How are you
uHH, i’M OKAY, i GUESS,
jUST A LITTLE LONELY,
adios-toreadoki started following you
D—> Hello
==> What was this lowbl— trolls name again
D—> … Tavros
D—> Right
uHH, hEY, eQUIUS,
hOW ARE YOU,
@adios-toreadoki
uHH, wELL, i JUST GOT SOME NEWS, tHAT ISN’T BAD, i GUESS, bUT IT ISN’T GOOD,
aND, uHH, i’M NOT SURE HOW TO FEEL ABOUT IT,
i’M KIND OF YOUNG, i DON’T THINK i’M READY TO BE, uHH, iN THIS SITUATION, jUST YET,
==> You don’t want to outright say it, but you hope the other would get the hints you gave, and notice the differences in your appearance. It was really hard to tell people about this, seeing as you are just 7 sweeps and really shouldn’t be in this position yet. You start to sniffle and tear up a bit, wiping at your eyes.
You take a moment to listen carefully to his words. Then you look him over once. His stomach is bulging. His appetite seems to have increased. He is having mood swings. You do not want to believe what you are beginning to think, but everything points to it. Every hope of anything more than friendship with this troll disappears. But you do not focus on your own feelings; you are here to help Tavros. Gently, you wrap an arm around his shoulders and pull him close. Rubbing his back with your free hand, you ask the dread question.
Tavros…Are you, erm…pregnant?
uHH, yEAH, aT LEAST, tHAT’S WHAT, uHH, i’VE BEEN TOLD,
i, hOPE THIS DOESN’T MEAN WE CAN’T STILL,
i MEAN, yOU’RE REALLY NICE, i, uHH„,
==> You aren’t sure what you are getting at, it’s hard for you to formulate an appropriate answer, but you get the feeling he perhaps liked you more than as a simply companion. Especially at the odd look on his face. You snug up close to his side, and rest your head on his chest, feeling awkward and sad.
uHH, wELL, mY MATESPRIT ISN’T REALLY AROUND A LOT,
aND HE’S KIND OF SPACEY,
iF YOU WOULD LIKE TO, i COULD REALLY USE SOME HELP WITH, uHH, tAKING CARE OF MYSELF, aND THE GRUB, lATER ON,
==> You smile at him, and hope things will be all right from here. You’ve heard of trolls having multiple matesprits and moirails, and even though you don’t really feel so strongly for him yet… You do like him, and he is pretty cute. And he’s not so different from the Gamzee that is your matesprit. You reach up and pap his face to get rid of the look on it.
uHH, dON’T BE SAD, i THINK THAT, wELL,
wE COULD GET REALLY CLOSE, iF YOU HELP ME WITH THIS, i WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE IT,
You stare at your lap, more than a little edgy whilst talking about your own feelings.
Thank you, I suppose.
You say quietly, then suck in a breath as he lays his head on your chest. It isn’t uncomfortable, he’s rather warm, honestly, and you want to hold him close and never let go. But you will restrain yourself. You are hugging someone else’s matesprit. Someone who might kill you for doing so.
As Tavros explains things about his matesprit, your mind is going a million miles a minute. What kind of troll wouldn’t be around when their matesprit is pregnant?! You find that so very wrong in so many ways. One’s matesprit is supposed to be the person one cherishes most; not the person one visits every now and again. Your thoughts are about to go down a totally different road, when Tavros paps your face.
…You do not have to worry. I’ll help you as much as I can, Tavros. That is a promise.
You smile a bit. It’s a smile that has a tinge of sadness around the edges.
I’m sure I’ll enjoy spoiling you and your grub with various confections.
uHH, wELL, iF HE’S ANYTHING LIKE ME, i’M SURE HE WOULD REALLY LIKE THAT,
==> You smile at him, and smooch his cheek, giggling a bit to try and lighten the mood. You aren’t sure why you think your grub is going to be male, but you just have a strong inkling about it. You give Gamzee a squeeze, and try to perk him up a bit.
uHH, hEY, wHY DON’T WE, uHH, dO SOMETHING TOGETHER, aGAIN,
i’M STILL KIND OF HUNGRY, iF YOU HAVE ANYTHING ELSE i COULD EAT,
aND, uHH, mAYBE YOU CAN READ ME A STORY, sINCE YOU LIKE TO READ A LOT,
You smile, then turn indigo when Tavros kisses your cheek. No one has done that before. Not even your lusus. You blush a deeper shade of indigo when he hugs you.
I do have some sandwiches, if you’d like those.
And I’m sure I could find some of my old fairy tale story books to read to you and your little grub.
uHH, yEAH, sANDWICHES SOUND NICE,
hAHA, wELL i DON’T KNOW IF HE CAN HEAR YOU, uHH, iN MY TUMMY, bUT IF HE CAN, i’M SURE HE’D LIKE THE STORIES,
==> You smile, giggling at the blush on Gamzee’s face. You give him a longer cheek kiss, and hug him nice and tight again. It feels nice to have someone to care about you, you think, and you want to show him you care about him, too.
uHH, yOU LOOK KIND OF PURPLE, gAMZEE,
aRE YOU, uHH, oKAY,
